RETRO CIRCLES

Sunday, January 29, 2012

Old post!! Seriously Long Seizure!

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Do not worry, this post is about the seizure Magnolia had on January 19th. 

I started writing this blog to help keep friends and family up to date.  I now write this blog to keep old friends, new friends and family in the loop about what is happening with us. I also write the blog as a sort of baby book, journal, therapeutic measure and a timeline/record.  That is why, even though Magnolia's seizure was 10 days ago, I am writing about it. 

Magnolia had her Speciality Clinic appointment on Tuesday, January 17, 2012. Speciality Clinic is where we sit in a room for 3 to 4 hours and several doctors/therapists/social workers etc come to see us. It is something Magnolia has been going to every 3 or 4 months since she was born. It is the place where we visit with several doctors including her neurologist. We had not seen him since December when Magnolia was in the hospital with her first (and second) seizure. Magnolia was pretty knocked out from all the drugs as well as just plain tired from seizing at that time. When he saw her at Clinic he was amazed at how wonderful she looked. He also loved that she took his little 'knee whacker thing' from him and kept transferring it from hand to hand.  (Transferring toys from one hand to the other is her new favorite activity. She does not use her hands to work together to manipulate something yet, but we are working on it. It is like her hands play hot potato. The second her other hand grabs ahold of the toy the first hand lets go instantly. Silly girl!) Anyway, he gave us a refill on Keppra and said that the low dose seemed to be working and he would see us in 4 months. I smiled and said, "Yep, see you in 4 months!" He responded, "Unless she seizes before then, then I will see you sooner." I laughed and said, "See you in 4 months!" Stupid Stupid Stupid!! I know better than that! Seriously! Talk about a major jinx!!

We also saw her ortho doctor and explained that her current AFOs were not working the way we would like. Magnolia is starting to bear some weight on her legs, not for long and with her knees totally locked, but it is a start. So we got new AFOs casted. We have not picked them up yet. I am anxious to see them.  We were also informed she still needs to wear her hip brace. UGH, but it is better than surgery or a spica-cast.

Thursday, January 19th, 2012

Toller and I were at school. Brian was at work, thankfully in town. Magnolia was home with her nurse Cindy. Cindy called me at work on my cell phone, which she has never done. My heart started racing. She told me Magnolia was fussy for about 30 minutes and then got really hot. Cindy took her temperature and it was 101.5. She gave Tylenol and called me. I told her to get the Diastat ready and I was going to call Magnolia's PCP  and Brian.  I called Brian, he left work immediately and headed for home, and I called the doctor but by then Magnolia started seizing. Cindy gave her the Diastat and her right hand convulsions stopped but she was still seizing. Brian got home and loaded Magnolia and Cindy in the car and headed to the ER. I ran out of school and headed to meet them there. (I work with the most amazing group of people. I am beyond lucky!!) My drive felt like it took an eternity! I could not get there fast enough. Do you ever realize that when you are in a hurry no one around you ever is? UGH! I try not to have road rage against people who are driving super fast and seem to be in a hurry because I always think to myself they could be headed to the hospital to meet a loved one. Well this just confirmed that. I was weaving *safely* in and out of traffic like a maniac. I arrived at the ER and ran inside. The ladies working the desk were also not in as big of a rush as I was. They slowly gave me directions to where Magnolia was. UGH! When I finally reached her I instantly looked at Brian, Cindy and the doctors and said, "She is still seizing?!?!?!" They were having a hard time getting an IV started.  Thankfully we had the same two wonderful nurses as we did back in December and they both said they remembered her and how hard of a stick she was. They got one in her scalp after only a couple of tries. They administered Ativan. We waited. We waited some more. 5 minutes passed. They went to give another dose of Ativan and her IV infiltrated. UGH! They looked for a new spot. Tried her foot, no luck. They looked at her other semi-okay scalp vein and decided to give it a shot. After the first fail the doctor told me not to worry, if they could not get that IV they could always do an intraosseous infusion (the needle is injected through the bone's hard cortex and into the soft marrow interior which allows immediate access to the vascular system.) The nurse looked at me and told me she had this. She was right. Scalp IV secured. The doctor wanted blood work for tests and we knew getting another vein was a long shot so the nurse quickly got as much blood as she could from the scalp and then administered the second dose of Ativan. Still seizing. We were talking about giving her a loaded dose of Keppra when she finally stopped. Her seizure lasted 90 minutes!! After she started to, very slowly, come around we started working on getting her transferred to the PICU. Once there she was given a loaded Keppra dose. We did not give it to her earlier because we were afraid she would need to be vented. I assumed she would crash from all the drugs and the long, exhausting seizure. NO! she became agitated. Combative! I heard that loaded doses of Keppra sometimes have that affect on people. I assumed she would have had that reaction in December, but because she did not then I did not think she would this time. Wrong. She was thrashing and whinning and completely combative. I could not get her to calm down. She was on oxygen the whole time. She hated it. She has not had to be on oxygen before and hated the tubing in her nose. She kept trying to rip it out and everytime she would her stats would drop. They finally had to tape it on her. That still did not stop her from trying to rip it out.  Her fever dropped.

We had wonderful nurses in PICU. Our nurse from December stopped by to say she was upset to see us again. She had hoped she would not see us again for awhile.  This particular nurse is an epileptic.  When she was taking care of Magnolia in December it was wonderful to have her be able to answer questions about seizures not only from a nurse's point of view, but also from someone who has them. Her best explaination of what it feels like after having a seizure is this:  "3 drinks past fun and then you fall down a flight of stairs!"  I loved it. It made perfect sense.

I would love to see My file in Magnolia's file. I know I have a 'that parent' note about me. I honestly thought about what it would say and then figured it is actually better if I do not know what it says.  I can just say I am happy with whatever they have written about me because this hospital experience was different and great.  Every resident who came in asked permission to move/listen/mess with Magnolia.  They admitted they knew nothing about WHS and asked wonderful questions.  The doctors and nurses did not want tons of unneccessary tests. They did not try to get blood from her ten times before realizing they did not really need that much. They were awesome!! So kind and sweet. They checked on me as much as they did Magnolia. Several asked about Toller and how he was handling it. The Child Life Specialist (the best thing ever to be invented) stopped by and chatted. I spoke one time about having people starting to get to remember Magnolia and us. I realize that if that is to happen it means we are spending time in the hospital, which is not a good thing, however it is wonderful that people are starting to know us.

As nice as the people in PICU were we wanted to get out as quickly as possible. It is RSV season and we did not want to get sicker.  Magnolia's fever would come and go. She still needed oxygen. Her blood work all came back fine. Her urine came back clean. They did a chest x-ray and it showed a little right perihilar infiltrate. They checked for RSV, influenza, parainfluenza and everything else respiratory they could. All came back clear.  They decided she had some virus or she aspirated during the seizure.  Because of her fever before the seizure they assumed it was some virus.  She also started sneezing and coughing while in PICU.  We spent Thursday night in PICU and when our neurologist came to visit he told us we could go to Peds. 

Every time we end up with an IV in her head we lose a little hair. The poor girl does not have enough lose.


Still so tiny


We spent Friday and Saturday night in Peds. Magnolia was doing better, but could not get weaned off the oxygen. Every time they would start to lower the rate her stats would drop. She was on less than 1 liter and her stats would not go below 85, but that was low enough to put her back on.  Finally Sunday morning she was able to come off and we got to go home. 

We are so thankful for all of the love and support from all of our coworkers, friends and family around the world.  We know we have a lot more hospital stays in our future but that does not make each one any less hard to do.  The overwhelming support means so much to us and we appreciate it more than we can express.  Thank you.

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Holiday Weight Gain

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Magnolia's weight yo-yos more than Kirstie Alley's.  I am not hating I swear, I grew up on Cheers. Kirstie is looking good these days.

Magnolia is finally back to 11lbs 5oz. I feel like that is what she weighed 3 months ago, oh wait, it is. She got mono....weight loss.  She had seizures....weight loss.  She moves all the time....weight loss.  Her body cannot handle straight pediasure....weight loss. We hope we are on the way up. We hope.
Magnolia in her tutu that one of my students made her. Too sweet.

T hanging out in his room

Magnolia and Toller on New Year's Eve
First time swinging at the park

Loving it, but it is cold!

Magnolia (dressed by dad) getting ready for a nice day

Bringing the Funk

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

2011 Recap

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This year, as the many that came before it, went by quickly. Too quickly at times. Kevin O'Brien once wrote a wonderful article

http://www.wolfhirschhorn.org/2011/01/lists/top-10-benefits-of-having-a-wolf-hirschhorn-child/ 

that listed the Top 10 Benefits of having a child with WHS. Reason number 4 was that you get to relish in each developmental stage 3 times longer. I often think of that and I totally agree. I feel Magnolia has changed and grown up so much, but the truth is, she has not changed as much as a typical-developing child would. Oh how happy I am that I get to relish in each stage for a bit longer.

Here is a recap of our 2011:

Side note - when you hear the word recap, or at least when I hear that word, I assume recap means brief, quick or short. This recap is none of those things. Not even in the slightest sense of the word. This post gets longer every night I work on it and I am certain I am forgetting many things. Here it goes anyway:

January - I returned to work. I had been home with Magnolia since October. Returning to work was bittersweet. I was sad and extremely nervous to leave Magnolia, but excited and anxious to get back to my students and co-workers.

Magnolia weighed 6lbs 2oz. She started smiling. Of course at the time it was mostly just for her brother, but we occasionally got one or two from her. When we read about Magnolia's diagnosis one of the hardest things for me to hear was the articles that talked about kids with WHS having 'no personality'. I was sad about the 'will not talk, will not walk' but the 'no personality' is the one that hurt my heart. Oh I cannot even put into words the feelings I felt when she started smiling. Her smiles continue to melt my heart. Oh and by the way kids with WHS have the most unbelievable, amazing and vibrant personalities! 
Ringing in 2011

So tiny

February - Brian turned 33 and we held our annual Super Bowl party. That party is one of our highlights of the year.

Brian and our dear friend Jen at the Super Bowl Party
Oh how he loves his little girl
Oh how he loves his little girl

March - We took our annual trip to NYC. This year however, we decided against driving and opted for flying. We did not want to take Magnolia, then 5 months old, on that long of a car trip. We had an amazing time, as always. We got to see our dear friends and they got to meet Magnolia. Toller ate his weight in hot dogs and had a blast.

Magnolia weighed 8lbs 5oz. She saw the city from a warm and comfortable baby wrap thanks to my sister-in-law Holly. It was perfect.  

Magnolia at Magnolia Bakery
Great friends Brian, Mish and Cami! 
Toller and Brian in Central Park


April -  We went back to my hometown for Easter. Every year the town has a huge Easter egg hunt and Toller loves it. He loves hunting eggs, but loves hanging out with his cousins, aunt and uncle and his grandparents on the family farm more.

While taking a walk in our neighborhood Toller met some kids around his age. He was, and is, thrilled to have a group of friends that live close.

Magnolia got fitted for a hearing aid for her left ear, it is pink of course. 

Easter 2011
Well Hello
Cousins are the best!
May - I turned 35, how did that happen?! I remember when I was young and 35 sounded so old! Toller turned 8, again...how did that happen?!? Toller completed first grade and we got excited for summer!

We went to visit dear family in Tulsa. It was so much fun, we love spending time with all of them.

Magnolia weighed 9lbs 5oz.

Toller's family birthday party - Laser Quest!
Toller's 8th birthday
Aunt Wendy is the greatest!
Uncle Dan ROCKS!

June - While enjoying our extremely hot summer Magnolia got sick, very sick. We almost lost her. We were hours away from losing her. Remembering that still drops me flat. Magnolia taught us many lessons during that month. Lessons we will not soon forget. 1. Stand up for your children. When you know something is wrong Speak up - Speak up - and Speak UP until someone listens.  2. If the first people are not listening Go Find New People! 3. Do not underestimate what Toller understands. He is affected by more than he lets on. Take time to talk to him about his sister, what he sees, questions he has and how he feels about all of it. 4. Magnolia does nothing by the book. She does not follow the book while she is well and she certainly does not follow it while ill. 5. Cherish each day. Each moment. Always.

Toller played baseball this year for the first time in several years. He loved it. Loved everything about it.

Toller 8 years old - Magnolia 8 months old
Happy Father's Day! Magnolia was released from the hospital.

Nice hit T.
July - We celebrated the 4th of July at the lake with family participating in the annual 4th of July boat parade. Our family, like always, decided to do something original. We had a blast.

Magnolia weighed 10lbs 2.5oz. She started batting and grasping toys. She still loves Slinkys, crazy beads and tiny light rattles.
Magnolia loved the warm lake water.

Happy 4th of July.

Our 2011 theme-Under Construction.

August - Toller started 2nd grade. I greeted a whole new group of 6th graders. We said goodbye to summer, but not to the heat. Wow, August was hot!

August 2011

1st day of 2nd grade

First day of school 2011
Looking so big in her chair
Magnolia found her toes!
September - We spent more time enjoying the lake house. Magnolia got an ipad and we were shocked at how much she 'got it'. She quickly figured out that tapping it makes things happen. Great cause and effect games. Oh and the rest of us enjoy it as well.

Brian, Scott (my brother-in-law) and Heather (my sister) decided to try something new this summer. It seems like every summer at the lake (this was our 7th summer there) they come up with something new to try. Well this year it was to triple ski/wake board. I drove the boat. Success!

Magnolia weighed 10lbs 14.5oz.

Relaxing at the lake
Fun in the sun
LOVE
Brian, Scott and Heather

My dad fishing

October - Magnolia turned 1! Oh what a party we had. It was perfect. Everything was perfect. We were surrounded by family and friends. So many people came to wish her Happy Birthday, many others sent well wishes. We were humbled by how many people this tiny little one has touched. We are thankful to have such incredible people in our lives.

Magnolia also got mono. The kissing disease....really? No idea how, but like we learned in June she does nothing by the book.

Magnolia weighed 10lbs 15.5oz.

Birthday girl with my mom getting ready to go into a doctor's appointment.
Birthday girl at her party with Isabella.
4 generations
Pumpkin Patch
Happy Halloween
November - We celebrated Thanksgiving with Brian's mom and dad. They were celebrating their 40th wedding anniversary. We decided to go to a neat little place called Paint the Towne. We had fun being creative. What great memories.

Looking good
Happy Thanksgiving

Happy 40th wedding anniversary

Painting their 'couples tree' at Paint the Towne

December - Magnolia had her first and second seizure. We had been waiting, worrying and watching for it for 14 months. It came. And when it decided to come it came with full force. The first one lasted over 30 minutes and the second one was 27 minutes. We were given the opportunity to prove what we had learned in June. We stood our ground. We were our child's advocate. We found doctors that had a history with Magnolia. We did not listen to those that did not know her. We spent some time educating new doctors on Magnolia and WHS. We, again, were shocked by the love and support we have around us.

We celebrated Christmas at the lake this year for the first time. It was amazing. We had a wonderful time and are excited to make this a tradition.

Magnolia weighed 10lbs 13oz. We are hoping to gain back the weight she lost while in the hospital after her seizures.  She recently started transferring toys from hand to hand. She still is not using both hands together to manipulate a toy, but it is a start.

Grandkids

Isabella and Magnolia

Magnolia and her amazing Godparents
The boys

Sweet Baby Girl
 We are excited to see what 2012 will bring for all of us.  From our family to yours Happy New Year!